Bowel control vs. Kama sutra for gay ppl

Dear Diary..

Mood: Apathetic

"The world is a dark and cold abyss with walls closing in on me, gripping me tighter. Tighter than my sister jeans, which look great on me by the way. I don't know diary, sometimes it feels like you're the only one who gets me. You're my best friend."

It ain't all that bad :). Was a while since I last posted, and here's why. I've been completely and utterly... umh.. I couldn't be arsed. Really. Plus I've been away on trip to Boxholm. Met my "collegues" and the CEO, stuff like that. I took a bus to Mjölby, and a train from there to the city of nowhere. I can tell you all that this talk about me being nervous and having low self esteem and all.. it ain't me bs-ing :D.. it's there for real. And for all the faint of heart and.. easily grossed.. you can skip this next part;

I couldn't get.. you know.. I didn't go #2 for a whole bloody week, cause my whole system shut down I was so nervous. My nose also started bleeding on the bus on the way up. I was a mess. And as soon as I came back I crapped a weeks load of turds. And did they ever want out. I swear I could hear them yelling; "ME FIRST.. ME FIRST!". So... there you have it. All the action a man could ever want, right here in my bowel region. Disgusting. When I got home I slept 16 hours straight.

Tomorrow I'll be 23. Yay? I don't know.... maybe? I've done more than most 22 y/o, but at 23 you can't act immature and blame it on your age. I guess you really can't at 22 neither :P.. but heeey... whaddaya know :)

Last night I dreamed I was on a date with a porn star. We had dinner at my old school. School lunch, that is. Pretty weird. And no hanky panky, so don't get any ideas. I'm a respectable young man. Not that I wouldn't hit it tho. Ooooh...

I shud also tell you about my social experiment I had planned for this weekend. It was to have some sort of gay porn binge with my friends, to find out different kind of things. If anyone was gay, or bisexual, and didn't know it, they would soon find out. And of course, everyone else would also know :). But also, why do hetrosexual ppl find homosexual sex so gross? I personally think it's pretty gross with two guys kissing, I have to admit it to myself and everyone else. But I don't consider myself to be homophobic. It's my problem if I'm grossed out, not theirs. But I enjoy watching two girls kissing, and that is equally gay. And anal-sex. Same thing. The pole goes in the pooper, be it man/man or man/woman. Or woman/woman + strap-on. OR... woman + strapon/man. You get the point :)...

The plan was to get to the bottom of it all by watching and learning. But the rest of the fellowship didn't seem that interested.

Well.. that's all folks....

Ps: Den välkända upplysningsboken med sexuella hemligheter från det eldiga asien, Kama Sutra, finns i versioner för homosexuella. Lite coolt. Jag vet inte varför detta blev på svenska och det andra på engelska, men jaja.